they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
sigh
so u didnt meet her, and so u called me, and so we talked.
and so we went out last night, and so we hung out and had loadsa fun and laughter, and so you fetched me home and we met my dad.
and so u asked me if he said anything, and so u told me u thought it was funny. and so you kept asking me if i was cold in the cinema, and so we were forever messing with one another but never touched. and so, i am so confused again.
i had sucha painful time trying to control my emotions. to keep it all under the surface. but beneath all of that, all i wanted to do was to scream. all i wanted to do was to ask if u cared like i did, if u liked me the way that i do. and the more i wanted to do it, the more i laughed harder. cos i am saying these things about other guys to u and there i was picturing us together. i am impressed with the performance ive put up.
meet up wit classmates on sat was great. i miss all of em so much..i miss my group so much. sigh. it makes me all nostalgic.:)
i love a55 and a52.certain ppl at least.:)
sigh.
i cannot live like this anymore. i cannot live like im going to break apart any moment.i want him to see me the way i see him. and i dont want others to keep leading me on. i dont want to have to be the first one to make first moves. to tell the people i miss that i want them back again. why do i keep forcing myself to make myself seem stronger than i seem. i guess blocking out things has always been what ive been known for. i miss him so damn much now. and i miss all of my vj friends like hell.and i miss nis. and i miss mary so much more(more than anyone would ever know, and i mean it so damn much).
i am wasting away.
hot guy is being so nice. secretly smiling at me. i love hot guy. haha, no.
my mind is so screwed.
asswipe. ASSWIPE! DINOSAURS ARE ASSWIPES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (guesswho,nosurprisesnow)
music: incubus- i wish u were here
and so we went out last night, and so we hung out and had loadsa fun and laughter, and so you fetched me home and we met my dad.
and so u asked me if he said anything, and so u told me u thought it was funny. and so you kept asking me if i was cold in the cinema, and so we were forever messing with one another but never touched. and so, i am so confused again.
i had sucha painful time trying to control my emotions. to keep it all under the surface. but beneath all of that, all i wanted to do was to scream. all i wanted to do was to ask if u cared like i did, if u liked me the way that i do. and the more i wanted to do it, the more i laughed harder. cos i am saying these things about other guys to u and there i was picturing us together. i am impressed with the performance ive put up.
meet up wit classmates on sat was great. i miss all of em so much..i miss my group so much. sigh. it makes me all nostalgic.:)
i love a55 and a52.certain ppl at least.:)
sigh.
i cannot live like this anymore. i cannot live like im going to break apart any moment.i want him to see me the way i see him. and i dont want others to keep leading me on. i dont want to have to be the first one to make first moves. to tell the people i miss that i want them back again. why do i keep forcing myself to make myself seem stronger than i seem. i guess blocking out things has always been what ive been known for. i miss him so damn much now. and i miss all of my vj friends like hell.and i miss nis. and i miss mary so much more(more than anyone would ever know, and i mean it so damn much).
i am wasting away.
hot guy is being so nice. secretly smiling at me. i love hot guy. haha, no.
my mind is so screwed.
asswipe. ASSWIPE! DINOSAURS ARE ASSWIPES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (guesswho,nosurprisesnow)
music: incubus- i wish u were here
posted by jo # 2:05 PM 