they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Thursday, January 13, 2005
ugh/
IM SO PISSED i could just die.
i hate my work. i hate my job.
honestly, I DONT GIVE A DAMN about ns men, their stupid payment, whatever friggin problems that they have. whatever SAF intends to implement, i JUST DON'T GIVE A FLYING F***
but no, now i cant knit, i cant read my book. i have to sit around and pretend to be busy. I HATE IT. i want to get out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
okay mebbe becos im sick at this moment. but nonetheless. I DONT F-ING CARE. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel so uninvolved, like nothing matters. i love my friends no doubt, but there's something in me that makes me want to NOT care, not to be close. i just want to be with mary, i just want to be with my group and the rest can just screw off and die. i want to be alone, i can be alone. all i need is a book, a cup of coffee, my knitting needles and i'll be fine.
so why do i feel so bad, so sad and so hurt.
can i not function properly for once in my life?
i dont want to go home becos once im home, i have to eat. and i DONT want to eat. i hate it i hate it i hate it.
i just want to be in NY, i just want to get out.
i just want to live like nothing even matters.
but i have to live up to expectations, i still have to go on. and i cant take this anymore.
i miss mary. a helluvalot.
i feel sick.
i want to go swimming.
i'll see.
and u'll be away in the jungle? i miss u already. wont see u this week. and that sucks.
hot guy is so nice, he treats me so well. why why why. sigh.
i got awfully chocolate job!!!weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
music: what music? ppl are all talking. and making me want to drown and die.
i hate my work. i hate my job.
honestly, I DONT GIVE A DAMN about ns men, their stupid payment, whatever friggin problems that they have. whatever SAF intends to implement, i JUST DON'T GIVE A FLYING F***
but no, now i cant knit, i cant read my book. i have to sit around and pretend to be busy. I HATE IT. i want to get out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
okay mebbe becos im sick at this moment. but nonetheless. I DONT F-ING CARE. UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel so uninvolved, like nothing matters. i love my friends no doubt, but there's something in me that makes me want to NOT care, not to be close. i just want to be with mary, i just want to be with my group and the rest can just screw off and die. i want to be alone, i can be alone. all i need is a book, a cup of coffee, my knitting needles and i'll be fine.
so why do i feel so bad, so sad and so hurt.
can i not function properly for once in my life?
i dont want to go home becos once im home, i have to eat. and i DONT want to eat. i hate it i hate it i hate it.
i just want to be in NY, i just want to get out.
i just want to live like nothing even matters.
but i have to live up to expectations, i still have to go on. and i cant take this anymore.
i miss mary. a helluvalot.
i feel sick.
i want to go swimming.
i'll see.
and u'll be away in the jungle? i miss u already. wont see u this week. and that sucks.
hot guy is so nice, he treats me so well. why why why. sigh.
i got awfully chocolate job!!!weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
music: what music? ppl are all talking. and making me want to drown and die.
posted by jo # 2:51 PM 