they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

why does it matter that all i ever want is for things to be the same again. why does it matter that i care so much about us that all i want is to talk to u again. why does it matter that all i can think about is how i just want us to be friends again and you dont even care. or at least it seems like u dont/
i honestly am too deluded, am i not?

--i am all teary eyed and crying again. mary, come home.

i am so lonely.
it's pathetic.

nis, do u want me to say im sorry?

cant live with this pain.this has made me want to leave this place more.and im going.it's going to happen for me. it is. it will. i'll make it happen.somehow.