they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

i am going outta control. and im losing my mind. all i want to do is to phase out, and stone. these days, my heart is racing, thumping like a mad drum. and it is driving me crazy. i don't even know why. i keep thinking about the wrong things about him, and the things i shouldnt even be picturing in my mind. somehow, things dont feel so simple. somehow, i would like to believe that he means something, or rather, i mean something. and it's wrong. it's very very wrong. becos first of all, this means absolutely nothing to him. and as much as i would like to think that there might be an inkling of some form of affection, whatsoever, in the way he messages me, and asks me out, i have no other clue. and it sucks. it sucks so much, it makes me sad. but i like to see him everyday, and picture us together. maybe it's all lust. yeah, it has to be. cos boy, he looks fine.-

he asked me for my blog add, are u seriously kidding me? and he checks my profile while we're at work and messages me when we sit two desks away from one another. and we're going out sunday night and on wednesday night and after that we are going on a holiday. oh my god. what have i gotten myself into.