they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
oh.my.good.god.
we.went.out.till.2.am.yesterday.
my dad was so pissed and i bet he(malcolm) was scared shitless. haha. but i think my dad's cool now. he's joking around and stuff.
but nonetheless, it was fun. very fun. too much fun. and he smelt sooooo good. haha. damn totally turned me on. freak!
sigh and he keeps dropping these subtle hints. SUCKS LA.
whatever, im not going to care. IM NOT GOING TO CARE.
having my heart broken too many times it's not an agenda im pleased to follow along these days.
--learnt about someone about my age getting married. i dont know if i should think it's a joke becos somehow there's a part of me that's envious. i am envious cos when they're 18, they know what it is like to love someone,literally,to death. it's not that i condone the act, considering their young age. but at least they've had experience the feeling of loving someone so much to the extent of knowing that this is the person that you want to spend the rest of your life with. they know what it is to love unconditionally, to know that it isnt just about two people being in love. it's two people wanting the same thing, knowing that this is the time of their lives, and they want to share it with one another. it's like a big slap in my face. a reminder that i may never ever, find anything close to what they have, ever. and it scares me, it scares me so much cos i am just so afraid that i'll never be able to be happy with any guy. that no one is able to make me happy like how they complement one another. what if i never find a guy that will love me, and really really stick by me. what if, what if, what if. so many of them.
results are apparently out on friday. shat. ill be in tanjong pinang. some ulu kelong. what the heck. but actually i m looking forward to the trip. cos i guess i really do need a break.
i wanna go home! but it's going to rain! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!
my dad was so pissed and i bet he(malcolm) was scared shitless. haha. but i think my dad's cool now. he's joking around and stuff.
but nonetheless, it was fun. very fun. too much fun. and he smelt sooooo good. haha. damn totally turned me on. freak!
sigh and he keeps dropping these subtle hints. SUCKS LA.
whatever, im not going to care. IM NOT GOING TO CARE.
having my heart broken too many times it's not an agenda im pleased to follow along these days.
--learnt about someone about my age getting married. i dont know if i should think it's a joke becos somehow there's a part of me that's envious. i am envious cos when they're 18, they know what it is like to love someone,literally,to death. it's not that i condone the act, considering their young age. but at least they've had experience the feeling of loving someone so much to the extent of knowing that this is the person that you want to spend the rest of your life with. they know what it is to love unconditionally, to know that it isnt just about two people being in love. it's two people wanting the same thing, knowing that this is the time of their lives, and they want to share it with one another. it's like a big slap in my face. a reminder that i may never ever, find anything close to what they have, ever. and it scares me, it scares me so much cos i am just so afraid that i'll never be able to be happy with any guy. that no one is able to make me happy like how they complement one another. what if i never find a guy that will love me, and really really stick by me. what if, what if, what if. so many of them.
results are apparently out on friday. shat. ill be in tanjong pinang. some ulu kelong. what the heck. but actually i m looking forward to the trip. cos i guess i really do need a break.
i wanna go home! but it's going to rain! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!
posted by jo # 8:51 AM 