they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

the male race is one big let down. it's like waking up in a fairy tale gone wrong. i really wonder if any decent males even exist anymore? im not being a feminist. nor am i trying to prove that we females are the perfection of society. all i am trying to say is that what happened to the santity of the males, what happened to JUST falling in love spontaneously, and that love was all simple, nice and sweet.

im loss for words, loss the way to commute my feelings. it hurts nothing more like a gaping wound. there are too many things going wrong, and i cant stop the way i feel. it is more tiring than ever to keep your feelings underneath it all. where do you learn to begin to put into words, and claim that this certain sort of feeling you experience, is love or is it hate?

there was this picture of this certain man i know. he sat there looking into the camera, with a gun in his hand and the gun barrel was projected to the camera. in that photo, he looked troubled, like he was contemplating..death. but this man, as far as i know, isnt that sort of person. he is helpful, and he is nice, to me.

all i really want is for days to go back to when it was simpler, so that i am able to live for once. without worry, without any doubts, without any fears. i dream about living a life in an amusement park and go wild, and be happy. i dream about owning a love, a love for a man that will keep me safe, like nothing in this big bad world can ruin me.

but all of it, seems like a distant dream. and i grow weak. for this life i dream, is nothing more than a mere fantasy. growing further and further away from me.