they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

all i can hear is this song, and it keeps playing like a cursed tune.

everytime i think of u, i get a shot right through into a bolt of blue.

i guess shit happens, and hey, who's to say it was supposed to be exclusive? that's the problem. each time i think about him, i dont know what i feel. is it hate? is it the pain?

all i remembered feeling was this numbing pain, like someone just ripped my heart out and stomped on it really really hard. like he crushed it and stuffed it into a blender and blended it, drank it down without one single thought going through his head. now, it's all mush and nothing poignant about it anymore. all sad, empty and hollow.

dejavu.

this pain, i haven grown unfamiliar with. im not going to say it hurts. becos trust me, no words can even begin to help describe the hurt tantamount to the emotions that are emulating from my very very crushed heart. it is killing me, and making me realise, that i will never be good enough for anyone. never.

stupidly, i thought(i even had the decency to dream)that we had something to good. it was a mistake from the start. i was never the one to ask him out, he called me sweetie, he made me feel like i was someone/something important in his life. and now i realise, im just someone he used to fill up that emotional void in his life. till he gets her back.

im so stupid.
and no one's here to comfort me on this very cold and lonely night.

it hurts, more than ever.
the people i love, are all leaving me one by one.

one.by.one.

music: frente- bizaare love triangle