they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

i cant really help myself anymore.i cant decipher what's this sort of emotion im feeling.maybe this is what they call 'having a soft spot'. but i cant help but to feel like there's more to it. i don't really want to bother, but it's at the back of my mind and it's making me lose focus(not that i have much to begin with)

it's just one of those days where i feel like im being wrapped up by this sort of subtle "depression" per se. it's melancholy, presumably. i wished i could tell him what i feel inside. there are just too many hints and it's making me go back to the way i felt about fabian. i know, i know, it's either im on rebound, or he is on rebound. But the fact is that maybe all im craving for is his attention. maybe all i want is desperately to know and remember what it was like to love again.

ive been spending alot of time thinking about what it would feel like to love someone unconditionally. the kind of love that makes you want to die, over and over again. to give your all. and to know that this man is my soulmate and that nothing, nothing at all can ever compare him up to anything else. if i gave it a try, it might all work out. but im being so skeptical about every damn thing, it's making me wear out. and wear thin.

my patience with love has ran out. and the water has run dry.

a penny for my thoughts, they say.

too much, too much, too much now.

oh baby, then it fell apart/.

ps: im so freaking cold. i want to die. really.