they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
sometimes..
sometimes i think these thoughts that hurt more than ever. they're like needles diggin into my skin. they haunt me. these ghosts just won't leave me alone/
do you not know how much you mean to me. you are always around, always there. what if one day i let all of my love&emotions take over my very very barren soul? and you suddenly leave, take flight, realising that im just not THAT girl.
i let things go too easily. i don't know if it's a conscious choice or not. but i cant help it. i cant help feeling this insecurity. that you're just too damn good to be true. that you are just a dream. one beautiful ticket to a made belief wonderland, a ferris wheel ride that has spun outta control. and everything must be put to a stop.
i can't let my mind think these thoughts, cos once i do, i start to get scared. i am scared of loving you baby. becos if i do love you too much, too much now, you might just go. and then my wasted heart will just shrivel and fade away into nothing but mere dust.
i cant make you promise, promise these things that are unpredictable. these things that are beyond yours and my control. but i just wished. wished i knew we're headed somewhere. somewhere good.
i cant help but to feel like we're so made for one another. i honestly never knew what it was like to have someone connect with me on so many levels. it is the feeling i never knew i could get. i always had this thought in mind that i am never good enough for anyone, never good enough for anything. i can be bitter, jaded as i want to be. but nothing can take away this feeling of ease, comfort each time im with u. but what if one day god decides to take it all away.
i cant get over myself.
you are just too damn beautiful.
--on a different note, dance has been great. today im going down to jitterbugs again. HURRAH! i love claire. me and sue are fast becoming her groupie. hahahaha. but whatever. i love her. i think she's awesome. :)
music fest dance turns out to be quite fun. havent done it in a long time but im still lovin' it. as bad as a dancer as i am. HECK. and the girls are awesome.
sigh, i feel pensive.
ugh, emoemoemoemoemo.but baby's so fly, hurts to even admit his mine. i love you mah pretty boy.(i hate being all mushy oh GOD).
i am baptised on the 27th of march and he was there. (he's always there)
do you not know how much you mean to me. you are always around, always there. what if one day i let all of my love&emotions take over my very very barren soul? and you suddenly leave, take flight, realising that im just not THAT girl.
i let things go too easily. i don't know if it's a conscious choice or not. but i cant help it. i cant help feeling this insecurity. that you're just too damn good to be true. that you are just a dream. one beautiful ticket to a made belief wonderland, a ferris wheel ride that has spun outta control. and everything must be put to a stop.
i can't let my mind think these thoughts, cos once i do, i start to get scared. i am scared of loving you baby. becos if i do love you too much, too much now, you might just go. and then my wasted heart will just shrivel and fade away into nothing but mere dust.
i cant make you promise, promise these things that are unpredictable. these things that are beyond yours and my control. but i just wished. wished i knew we're headed somewhere. somewhere good.
i cant help but to feel like we're so made for one another. i honestly never knew what it was like to have someone connect with me on so many levels. it is the feeling i never knew i could get. i always had this thought in mind that i am never good enough for anyone, never good enough for anything. i can be bitter, jaded as i want to be. but nothing can take away this feeling of ease, comfort each time im with u. but what if one day god decides to take it all away.
i cant get over myself.
you are just too damn beautiful.
--on a different note, dance has been great. today im going down to jitterbugs again. HURRAH! i love claire. me and sue are fast becoming her groupie. hahahaha. but whatever. i love her. i think she's awesome. :)
music fest dance turns out to be quite fun. havent done it in a long time but im still lovin' it. as bad as a dancer as i am. HECK. and the girls are awesome.
sigh, i feel pensive.
ugh, emoemoemoemoemo.but baby's so fly, hurts to even admit his mine. i love you mah pretty boy.(i hate being all mushy oh GOD).
i am baptised on the 27th of march and he was there. (he's always there)
posted by jo # 2:48 AM 