they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

sometimes devoting too much is a hassle, too tiring at times. i guess we all have expectations, we all want certain people to pay more attention to our own needs. all of these, just so we can feel better about ourselves and the world altogether. when these people fail to deliver, fulfill our expectations, disappointments, dismay sets in. and it's so damned painful. like someone is ripping your heart out. and the pain is ringing all through the night.

but what can u do? mop, cry over it and be a big baby? no, you can't.

u move on, keep it under the wraps, pray and hope that this would never happen again. but yet, at the same time, you familiarise yourself with this feeling. so next time, it doesnt feel all that bad anymore.

expectations, so many of 'em. ive grown tired of people not meeting up to what i expect of them. so many has left and gone now. all because they didnt stay long enough to convince me that they can if they tried hard enough.

i love baby. i love baby so much it makes me cringe in pain knowing i made him sad. what's wrong with me. is it that i have this perpetual need to be assured that love would stay long enough this time? maybe. because i want this work out so badly for us. guess it's all about learning to compromise now right?

ease into me slowly and hold me close bae.

--ntu interview with mass comm was great. saw hoeden. i miss that bitch dude. and we were totally bitching. HURRAH! haha. and we were just saying how we so badly want to get into mass comm. i love that girl.

sitting in the SCI building has made me want to start my own magazine even more. i am sucha big fat dreamer huh. haha, so sue me. i dont care. it's my dream. and writing will always be a part of me.

on every other random note, im getting my brazilian wax tomorrow. mmmm been waiting for this day. hahahaha. whatever! weeeeeeeee!