they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
i hate this job.
im having the worst day at work. my supervisor's being the usual, pain in the arse. pain in MY ass. ugh. god, i cant wait to quit. leave this friggin desk job and MOVE ON.
anyway, i dont know what's up with me today. i feel rather overwhelmed. overwhelmed by what? i dont exactly know. it's like a peculiar wave of angst, not so much melancholy. more so of disdain. whatever it is, i dont feel right. (oh what the hell, i never ever feel right in the first place)
i really wonder if it's me or is it my incompetence that will continue to haunt me. this feeling that i'll never be good enough for anyone and anything. i am not going to lie. i am not going to say that someday, someday, i'll be something. cos there's this perpetual nagging feeling that these ghosts of mine would never ever leave me alone. i often think to myself what did i do, to meet him. he seems too good to be true. and if he leaves me, i might just fall apart. he makes me so happy and im afraid when others see me with him, they'd think 'what is he doing with her?'
god, what the hell is wrong with me.
on a lighter note altogether, it's about 37 more days to see mary and NYC. HECK YES. friggin awesome. i cant wait to go and join her. i miss her to shits. GOD.
I HATE THIS JOB BTW.(hate, is fyi, just an understatement)
anyway, i dont know what's up with me today. i feel rather overwhelmed. overwhelmed by what? i dont exactly know. it's like a peculiar wave of angst, not so much melancholy. more so of disdain. whatever it is, i dont feel right. (oh what the hell, i never ever feel right in the first place)
i really wonder if it's me or is it my incompetence that will continue to haunt me. this feeling that i'll never be good enough for anyone and anything. i am not going to lie. i am not going to say that someday, someday, i'll be something. cos there's this perpetual nagging feeling that these ghosts of mine would never ever leave me alone. i often think to myself what did i do, to meet him. he seems too good to be true. and if he leaves me, i might just fall apart. he makes me so happy and im afraid when others see me with him, they'd think 'what is he doing with her?'
god, what the hell is wrong with me.
on a lighter note altogether, it's about 37 more days to see mary and NYC. HECK YES. friggin awesome. i cant wait to go and join her. i miss her to shits. GOD.
I HATE THIS JOB BTW.(hate, is fyi, just an understatement)
posted by jo # 4:13 AM 