they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

i think there are alot of things i think too much of and i ponder too much. if i tried hard enough, maybe i might just give this(soul) a rest. sometimes i let my emotions get to my head too much, and it's kind of consuming at times. easy now, easy now.

i just dont get my mom at times. i cant stand being home. really, for my heart is stifled, i find it hard to be alone at home. there are times when i wished i could just be on my own y'noe. like i dont really wanna go back to a place that makes me sad, dreary and all. i know maybe im being too much of an ingrate. but it's not that you see. like the whole eating issue. god, the eating. i just dont get it. i just want to be on my own. and sometimes i just dont want to talk. so stop it already. just stop. it's making me very tired. very tired.

on the other hand, it's hard to say if im being far too naive for my own good. though there are times when i do believe that love might be a saving grace after all. there isnt a reason i can find and pin point that feeling i get when i am with him. it's incomprehensible but it works for me. me and him, him and me. even as much as my insecurities come back to haunt me, it goes without saying that, i can only trust my instincts. as intangible as that may look on the surface. afterall, cliche has it that you learn with every new relationship you step into. i guess i could look at it both ways. in any case, it keeps me grounded, keeps me safe and keeps me hopeful now. for a long time, ive been far too jaded. and never thought this feeling of contentment would ever suffice. you could be my everything, if u allow yourself too.

there's dance tonight. totally rocking good.
going broke. need a plan. a plan to get rich.

oh heck, been shopping online too much. and i want to buy my shoeessss. my shoooooeeeeeessssss!:) about 2 weeks more to nyc. friggin awesome. totally.