they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

i dont want any of this anymore. i want to go back to new york. where i am alone and i can be whatever i want to be, do what i want to do and be happy. i dont want to sit in front of this screen, crying these stupid tears that nobody sees. i just want for things to be all okay and i dont even have to try to make it be that way. i just want for someone to hold me and tell me it's all going to be okay.

what's the point. all i get in the end is unappreciation and more of it. i hate it that you gotta be this way and treat me like im some ungrateful brat. only knowing that i can spend your money. honestly, all i want is to just for u to understand that i just want to be left alone. i will talk when i need to, but for now, i am too tired. i am just so fucking tired of trying.

god, joanne ure so dumb. u can cry all u want, but u would never get out of this. so why dont u just fucking try.

i just want things to be simple again. where i can be on my own. completely on my own. i think i would be better off this way. cos nothing i do would ever be good enough. NOTHING. no one sees me in this state of complete despair. as i let the tears run, i dont even fucking know why.