they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
im up at 1.09am when i ought to be getting some sleep. actually no, i dont deserve to sleep. been sleeping way too much. but i guess sleep is good. at least i can keep my mind away from the thoughts that may kill.
im up at 1.10am, listening to chicago's if you leave me now. and reminded of 'alot like love' and of you. for the things that you told me still remain vivid in my mind. and the love that i long for, of that of oliver and emily's, now seems distant and far.
tell me am i wrong for wanting to know that ill be loved? that ill be remembered? would you rather me become a block of wood, with no emotions whatsoever? what should i do, please tell me. for the more i try to make things between u and i better, it just keeps getting worse, and worse. im cursed for life. for the man i love, has just told me to 'pull the plug'.
but i dont want to pull the fucking plug. i just want you to know that i love you. and just to know that you love me too. is that so much to ask. if that is, then, im so sorry.
i knew my wasted heart loved too much.
im up at 1.10am, listening to chicago's if you leave me now. and reminded of 'alot like love' and of you. for the things that you told me still remain vivid in my mind. and the love that i long for, of that of oliver and emily's, now seems distant and far.
tell me am i wrong for wanting to know that ill be loved? that ill be remembered? would you rather me become a block of wood, with no emotions whatsoever? what should i do, please tell me. for the more i try to make things between u and i better, it just keeps getting worse, and worse. im cursed for life. for the man i love, has just told me to 'pull the plug'.
but i dont want to pull the fucking plug. i just want you to know that i love you. and just to know that you love me too. is that so much to ask. if that is, then, im so sorry.
i knew my wasted heart loved too much.
posted by jo # 4:15 PM 