they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Monday, July 04, 2005
it's been a while since i last blogged.
as of now,ive decided to learn not to care.learn not to bother with the feelings that make me feel drained. because im in a time and place where i have just got too much damn free time to idle around and think, think of the thoughts that could sap my energy away. so ive decided, that if i learn to let it go, rest easy, i can switch off like i always did and nothing would matter anyway. and that, would be good. cos i wouldnt have any emotional baggage to wear the people around me down, like it always has. i like to make alot of big hoo-ha about nothing, and one day, everyone's not going to give 2 hoots about me. so why bring such an unfortunate fate upon myself eh? i say cheers to being numb.aye!
anyway, been helping out for the OSIM asian triathlon championship for the past week. stuck at the furama riverfront hotel. just for a measley sum of money of about 300 dollars, this job officially sucks. though ive made some friends here and there, seen what it's like to be an event planner(man it sucks) , i really dont think ill go into this line of work. cos the pay is bad, you sleep, sorry i meant, you DON'T sleep(literally) and you have to face a shit hole of asswipes. so no, sorry. haha. whatever. im so cold here, it's not even funny. im slacking cos well, im just too god damn tired. i havent slept much these 7 days. i would kill anyone who annoyed me. so whatever yeah!
i got to go see the situation downstairs, handling athletes that can be complete idiots. but nonetheless, Pip taylor of Aussie land and Andrea Smith of New Zealand are my new found ideas cos they're all so hot!(they are fyi, female athletes with bodies TO DIE FOR) not forgetting my gorgeous japanese team especially this boy who looks like a caucasian(god, those eyes!) and man, he is CUTE(kawaii, whatever haha)! but he is in the elite sprint junior team, so that makes me a paedophile? haha, screw. peter robertson-world champion but looks like an ordinary chap. and the KAZ team looks orgasmic especially the males. hahaahhaa. god, eye candy land.
i miss baby. i miss him massaging my tootsies, i miss him hugging me, i miss him smiling at me and knowing he means it. sigh, i miss him.
:(
as of now,ive decided to learn not to care.learn not to bother with the feelings that make me feel drained. because im in a time and place where i have just got too much damn free time to idle around and think, think of the thoughts that could sap my energy away. so ive decided, that if i learn to let it go, rest easy, i can switch off like i always did and nothing would matter anyway. and that, would be good. cos i wouldnt have any emotional baggage to wear the people around me down, like it always has. i like to make alot of big hoo-ha about nothing, and one day, everyone's not going to give 2 hoots about me. so why bring such an unfortunate fate upon myself eh? i say cheers to being numb.aye!
anyway, been helping out for the OSIM asian triathlon championship for the past week. stuck at the furama riverfront hotel. just for a measley sum of money of about 300 dollars, this job officially sucks. though ive made some friends here and there, seen what it's like to be an event planner(man it sucks) , i really dont think ill go into this line of work. cos the pay is bad, you sleep, sorry i meant, you DON'T sleep(literally) and you have to face a shit hole of asswipes. so no, sorry. haha. whatever. im so cold here, it's not even funny. im slacking cos well, im just too god damn tired. i havent slept much these 7 days. i would kill anyone who annoyed me. so whatever yeah!
i got to go see the situation downstairs, handling athletes that can be complete idiots. but nonetheless, Pip taylor of Aussie land and Andrea Smith of New Zealand are my new found ideas cos they're all so hot!(they are fyi, female athletes with bodies TO DIE FOR) not forgetting my gorgeous japanese team especially this boy who looks like a caucasian(god, those eyes!) and man, he is CUTE(kawaii, whatever haha)! but he is in the elite sprint junior team, so that makes me a paedophile? haha, screw. peter robertson-world champion but looks like an ordinary chap. and the KAZ team looks orgasmic especially the males. hahaahhaa. god, eye candy land.
i miss baby. i miss him massaging my tootsies, i miss him hugging me, i miss him smiling at me and knowing he means it. sigh, i miss him.
:(
posted by jo # 12:08 AM 