they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Thursday, September 29, 2005
after a half an hour session blog hopping, i have come to realise that the best written blogs(or rather in my very meagre opinion) are those that have owners who talk about sex or have had sex and published it non-discreetly (ie. sarong party girl). controversial as they may have been, the words on their blogs, do make alot of sense. but conventions being conventions, everyone just closes their eyes oblivious to their good writing skills(or blogging skills for that matter). i think they deserve some credit- clap clap- (no sarcasm or anything of that sorts, i mean it through and through)
i am no sex addict, and no interest in their sex lives whatsoever. but the truth of the matter is, they DON'T just talk about sex. i mean, REALLY! they have had insightful opinions on men, love, relationships, religion(although the deep deep irony i cant even begin to say) and the things in life that matter. whatever it is, i am impressed. but hey, it's me! do drop by and judge for yourselves no? www.sarongpartygirl.blogspot.com and http://singleserves.blogspot.com/. ace entertainment.
it's 8.04pm and i just fumbled outta bed after falling asleep at 5 something. i was tooo god damned tired outta my mind, being armed with less than 4 hours of sleep the night before. MAF was great, i didnt care that i was singing to a ching-chong mamasan song that doesnt make sense(well to me becos my mandarin is barely mediocre much less GOOD) and dancing. i had wished songs were of nature that had great appeal to me. like loud banging hiphop, good and loud. but well, i guess u win some, u lose some(cliches, PFFT). in any case, i am really glad it's over..met some amazing people and feeling closer to some.
i am hungry.
--the issues on eating have been something i have always very skilfully avoided, however badly i do it. because i am fearful of confrontations. i am fearful of having to face it and the people that care about me. i often tell myself, i'm eating fine, what's the big fuss? but i guess what i dont realise is that people often dont seem me eating, so they don't really know if my words can be taken for real. well the little mama shop above my head (i place my food on the shelves provided by the oh-so-nice ntu hostels) shld be quite evident no? i have, very often, tried to convince my parents that i am capable of watching out for myself. but maybe i really am not able to. not without them trusting me or having qualms about things i say. i don't know anymore. it's times like these i often wished i had nothing to face, that this, or anything else would be an issue that stands in the way between me and the rest of the human population. people always say things like 'JO DOESNT EAT' or 'SO EATING THAT WILL MAKE YOU 10 TIMES THE SIZE YOU ALREADY ARE?' to me and to other people who have just gotten to know me( y'know, new school and all) and i get very very annoyed. becos' for one, DON'T make me seem like a big fat freak in front of others, i cant handle the rejection and for the love of god, leave the weird ass eating antics to be publicised by me. you, for one, only see me as the me in public, but deep down i am very (can i say extremely?) paranoid and insecure. i hate it when you do that. i sound like a spoilt brat, but do i care anymore, HELL NO.
i need to fart.
haha.
the r'ship(if we even had one) with my roomie is really getting quite sucky for my liking. she just coops herself up in the room. and having her occasional chinese friends over (WHY WHY ARE NTU PEOPLE LIKE THAT?!). we hardly have proper conversations. if you consider, hello and byebye as talking, you seriously need communication work. and i major in communications for crying out loud! oh well. i guess, again, you win some, you lose some. i love valerie but she stays in block 53! that girl's a blast.:)
i have a 101 test coming up and i have my 111 project due 2 weeks from now AND i have my 106 presentation next friday for that bastard of a lecturer and the thorn in my sight, JUSTIN SANTIAGO. and and i have 108 due in another 2 weeks to.
GOD, the workload never ends. so why have i just spent 21 mins typing on my lap about my oh-so-exciting life?
yeah, you get the point. me, shower and out! i still need my daily dosage of f.r.i.e.n.d.s. and newspapers. hah.
i am no sex addict, and no interest in their sex lives whatsoever. but the truth of the matter is, they DON'T just talk about sex. i mean, REALLY! they have had insightful opinions on men, love, relationships, religion(although the deep deep irony i cant even begin to say) and the things in life that matter. whatever it is, i am impressed. but hey, it's me! do drop by and judge for yourselves no? www.sarongpartygirl.blogspot.com and http://singleserves.blogspot.com/. ace entertainment.
it's 8.04pm and i just fumbled outta bed after falling asleep at 5 something. i was tooo god damned tired outta my mind, being armed with less than 4 hours of sleep the night before. MAF was great, i didnt care that i was singing to a ching-chong mamasan song that doesnt make sense(well to me becos my mandarin is barely mediocre much less GOOD) and dancing. i had wished songs were of nature that had great appeal to me. like loud banging hiphop, good and loud. but well, i guess u win some, u lose some(cliches, PFFT). in any case, i am really glad it's over..met some amazing people and feeling closer to some.
i am hungry.
--the issues on eating have been something i have always very skilfully avoided, however badly i do it. because i am fearful of confrontations. i am fearful of having to face it and the people that care about me. i often tell myself, i'm eating fine, what's the big fuss? but i guess what i dont realise is that people often dont seem me eating, so they don't really know if my words can be taken for real. well the little mama shop above my head (i place my food on the shelves provided by the oh-so-nice ntu hostels) shld be quite evident no? i have, very often, tried to convince my parents that i am capable of watching out for myself. but maybe i really am not able to. not without them trusting me or having qualms about things i say. i don't know anymore. it's times like these i often wished i had nothing to face, that this, or anything else would be an issue that stands in the way between me and the rest of the human population. people always say things like 'JO DOESNT EAT' or 'SO EATING THAT WILL MAKE YOU 10 TIMES THE SIZE YOU ALREADY ARE?' to me and to other people who have just gotten to know me( y'know, new school and all) and i get very very annoyed. becos' for one, DON'T make me seem like a big fat freak in front of others, i cant handle the rejection and for the love of god, leave the weird ass eating antics to be publicised by me. you, for one, only see me as the me in public, but deep down i am very (can i say extremely?) paranoid and insecure. i hate it when you do that. i sound like a spoilt brat, but do i care anymore, HELL NO.
i need to fart.
haha.
the r'ship(if we even had one) with my roomie is really getting quite sucky for my liking. she just coops herself up in the room. and having her occasional chinese friends over (WHY WHY ARE NTU PEOPLE LIKE THAT?!). we hardly have proper conversations. if you consider, hello and byebye as talking, you seriously need communication work. and i major in communications for crying out loud! oh well. i guess, again, you win some, you lose some. i love valerie but she stays in block 53! that girl's a blast.:)
i have a 101 test coming up and i have my 111 project due 2 weeks from now AND i have my 106 presentation next friday for that bastard of a lecturer and the thorn in my sight, JUSTIN SANTIAGO. and and i have 108 due in another 2 weeks to.
GOD, the workload never ends. so why have i just spent 21 mins typing on my lap about my oh-so-exciting life?
yeah, you get the point. me, shower and out! i still need my daily dosage of f.r.i.e.n.d.s. and newspapers. hah.
posted by jo # 11:21 AM 