they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Friday, November 11, 2005
the cursor blinks, it's an empty canvas before me, and the bleeding of my words wishes to start... but i grow silent, afraid of decomposing my shell. you dont know me. i don't know you anymore. a stranger in the midst of all this familiarity you and i once share.
i think ive grown up too fast, and sometimes i hate myself for it. i feel like life when you are 19, is pretty boring. isn't that sad? mel would say 'im only 19.' so yeah, 'im only 19'. it is about a quarter of my lifetime but i feel like there's nothing more to come. and i am quite..BLAH about it. i just can't watch ra movies. which is kinda okay by me.
i guess i'll get a job, hopefully something that i love. and den ill get a house, an apartment where ill dress it jo-style. perhaps nice ecclectic furniture, a little to the 'cute' side (so sue me) and maybe a nice zen corner.. and den ill get my car, hopefully enough money to get a mini cooper convertible(DARE to dream!hah!) ..not forgetting a dog. ill probably live on my own..
in all this hardcore daydreaming, do i see me having a kid? er, no. do i see me having a marriage?er, no again.
i think i really am some boho wannabe, just going from place to place and living on my own. or perhaps i am just some unappreciative brat who will run out of this country if the opportunity comes up.
so after all this, where do i go?
so life at 19 is about dreaming, but not knowing if ill get it. life at 19, is about finding your footing in the world and not hiding behind the protective walls of school. life at 19, is finding love and wondering if this could be it. life at 19 is still about books and studying your brains out but being mediocre again. life at 19, is rather, very much, exhaustive.
i miss life when i was 13,14,15,16,17,18 but not loving 19 anymore.
back then, things were simpler.
sigh
--exams are stifling on self.and i hate it( french was pretty good but wont be seeing yannick, that's so unfortunate! he's so sexy.hah!)
but on a happier note, I FOUND FLOWER'S BLOG!!!!!I MISS HER TO BITS.:(
and im seeing ah wen and bry tmrw, SO EXCITING!
i think ive stopped caring about you and i altogether.
i think ive grown up too fast, and sometimes i hate myself for it. i feel like life when you are 19, is pretty boring. isn't that sad? mel would say 'im only 19.' so yeah, 'im only 19'. it is about a quarter of my lifetime but i feel like there's nothing more to come. and i am quite..BLAH about it. i just can't watch ra movies. which is kinda okay by me.
i guess i'll get a job, hopefully something that i love. and den ill get a house, an apartment where ill dress it jo-style. perhaps nice ecclectic furniture, a little to the 'cute' side (so sue me) and maybe a nice zen corner.. and den ill get my car, hopefully enough money to get a mini cooper convertible(DARE to dream!hah!) ..not forgetting a dog. ill probably live on my own..
in all this hardcore daydreaming, do i see me having a kid? er, no. do i see me having a marriage?er, no again.
i think i really am some boho wannabe, just going from place to place and living on my own. or perhaps i am just some unappreciative brat who will run out of this country if the opportunity comes up.
so after all this, where do i go?
so life at 19 is about dreaming, but not knowing if ill get it. life at 19, is about finding your footing in the world and not hiding behind the protective walls of school. life at 19, is finding love and wondering if this could be it. life at 19 is still about books and studying your brains out but being mediocre again. life at 19, is rather, very much, exhaustive.
i miss life when i was 13,14,15,16,17,18 but not loving 19 anymore.
back then, things were simpler.
sigh
--exams are stifling on self.and i hate it( french was pretty good but wont be seeing yannick, that's so unfortunate! he's so sexy.hah!)
but on a happier note, I FOUND FLOWER'S BLOG!!!!!I MISS HER TO BITS.:(
and im seeing ah wen and bry tmrw, SO EXCITING!
i think ive stopped caring about you and i altogether.
posted by jo # 5:29 AM 