they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

all it took was for a song to send the tears coming.

last night was fabulous. we rocked it real nice at dbl o and i managed to hook up. but today, when i woke up, i felt emptier, and hollow, so hollow inside. they just keep coming back and i cant seem to stop. i am dead tired from pretending it's all okay. because in me, i feel lost and very much alone. somehow, i have got to make this stop. but i really dont know how. yesterday was the day, i decided that i'll move on, deleted all photos of you, of all the messages that you sent. but no matter how many times i press the delete button, there's one thing i can't delete away. and that was of all those memories, the meanings, the stories behind everything. i wished i could be every little thing you wanted. i am so god damned sorry about every single thing that went wrong between us. and i want so much to call you, to tell you that inside i am hurting as hell and im afraid i'm not going to be able to stand again. ive been trying, ive been trying, trust me i have. i keep telling all those around me that i am okay, that i guess i'm fine.

but u know what, i so am not. and i really want nothing more but for me to never wake up from this pain. ever, again. i cannot stop them from taking me over anymore. too weak, too powerless. do you miss me too? did you know i missed you? i missed you, i missed you so, so, so, very, very, much.
mary's leaving, and i think i wont be able to survive the days of learning to recover from a heartache of losing my love, and not seeing my best friend for another year. or more. and i fear going home, of trying to put on a front that i am fine. of trying to move on effortlessly. i am just so scared inside, i'm so scared. but no one is here to comfort me in my fears.

The wind it blows through the trees
Claiming those innocent leaves
And the thunder rolls these crashing seas
Like a tender kiss holds this heart in me

In this life long love song
You can love right you can love wrong
In this love song you can love long
But if you love wrong it doesn't mean love's gone

Mary was a young girl with a young girl's heart
Well all I can remember is I loved her from the start
I was hers forever she was mine too
But something's wrong 'cause now she's gone
Tell what should I do

In this life long love song
You can love right you can love wrong
In this love song you can love long
But if you love wrong it doesn't mean love's gone
Whoa
And it doesn't mean love's wrong
Just because you're feeling' low
And it doesn't mean loves gone
'Cause you feel that you want to let go
Well no one wrote in this book of love that you'd always know
I wish someone would've told me before

We talked about love a million times it seems
The words come out our lips like we forgot what it means
We said we'd be together 'til death do us part
But we said those words with only half our hearts

In this life long love song
You can love right you can love wrong
In this love song you can love long
And if you love wrong it doesn't mean love's gone

I wish someone would've told me before
(I wish someone would've told me before)
I wish someone would've told me before
(I wish someone would've told me before)
I wish someone would've told me before
(I wish someone would've told me before)

music: hanson- love song