they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

i havent blogged in forever and a day. did you miss me? i think not.
could it have been i havent had the chance to stop and think, and hence feel depressed that i should start typing here again? or could it just be the fact that it gets so empty inside, i give up on it. for some reason, im starting to miss you again. and that these tears that are coming, is somehow a reminder of just how much i miss you. and i wished for you to be here all of a sudden, out of no demand of mine, but just for you to hold my hand and just hold me, till the night turns into day. when it gets easier to pretend that you're no longer around anymore. festive seasons are never easy, when you see happy couples and wished you had someone just like they did. or when they ask the very dreadful qn, so..are you single?

i wished i could delve into a whole conversation of how i wished i was not, and that i had someone just a few weeks back but now i lost love. but somehow i just kept it at the simple-- yes, im single, and always have been. tightlipped, hands clutched into balls of regret and fighting the quiver in my voice.

suddenly, the onslaught of tears is making it so hard for me to write. i just wished you were here, and i don't like this feeling of being alone anymore. because i still love you.

how does one get on without knowing what tomorrow brings? pls, for everything, just come home. please.

music: hanson- love song