they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
you know what i have come to realise? i have learnt that when you love someone, there's one part you failed to remember. and that is, you have to prepare yourself for the goodbyes that come with it. lover, family or friends, there's no going round it. it will inevitably come, whatever, or whenever it may be. pessimistic, a tad perhaps. but it's the sad, sad truth. sometimes, you just gotta let go, and let live. but it's god damn hard, and it just isn't fair that even when you try so hard to keep the one you love by your side, they would one day, just leave. be it walking away, or in death, you just have to say goodbye.
there are days when i feel like i am okay, and days i feel like i'm going to die from the pain that yields inside me. there are days when i feel like i can still move on, and move past this sudden turn of events, and then there are the times when i feel like i am about to fall apart and break. my soles are tired from running away, and i wish to come to a stand still. damn it, i have had enough of all this talk. i have just had it with all this talk. enough, is enough.
yet, i have been writing a shit load. and there are so many thoughts that contain me when i am alone.
i know one kind of love that never ceases. and that is the love of God. perhaps i may not look like one, much less act like one(a christian, that is). but i do take pride in my religion. very much, in fact. for the past few days, i have been praying, with all my might and with all my heart and with every ounce of emotion i could conjure. for i am just so tired of fighting this battle myself. and it has proved to be rather therapeutic. faith, it's a powerful weapon. but it is also the one thing i can't hold on for too long. i've said this once to him. and that is, at the end of the day, the love of god, would still prevail. for sometimes, i cant find the answer to things, you just have to know the big guy up there would do something, somehow.
and he agreed.
the intangibility of it all, is now what i seek and run after. for he isn't here anymore to tell me all will be okay. and so, my words are back to bite me right in the ass. but it has proven to be, somehow, true. i hope it stays this way.
music: dave matthews band- stolen away on 55th&3rd
there are days when i feel like i am okay, and days i feel like i'm going to die from the pain that yields inside me. there are days when i feel like i can still move on, and move past this sudden turn of events, and then there are the times when i feel like i am about to fall apart and break. my soles are tired from running away, and i wish to come to a stand still. damn it, i have had enough of all this talk. i have just had it with all this talk. enough, is enough.
yet, i have been writing a shit load. and there are so many thoughts that contain me when i am alone.
i know one kind of love that never ceases. and that is the love of God. perhaps i may not look like one, much less act like one(a christian, that is). but i do take pride in my religion. very much, in fact. for the past few days, i have been praying, with all my might and with all my heart and with every ounce of emotion i could conjure. for i am just so tired of fighting this battle myself. and it has proved to be rather therapeutic. faith, it's a powerful weapon. but it is also the one thing i can't hold on for too long. i've said this once to him. and that is, at the end of the day, the love of god, would still prevail. for sometimes, i cant find the answer to things, you just have to know the big guy up there would do something, somehow.
and he agreed.
the intangibility of it all, is now what i seek and run after. for he isn't here anymore to tell me all will be okay. and so, my words are back to bite me right in the ass. but it has proven to be, somehow, true. i hope it stays this way.
music: dave matthews band- stolen away on 55th&3rd
posted by jo # 12:00 AM 