they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
today was a day of much pensive thoughts and such.
there's a man i thought about today, a man i dont even know exists, a man i wish to find one day, a man i wished was you or you..or perhaps you.
he will quote me love poems that will rapture my heart, but yet watch trashy shows with me (ie. punk'd or jackass) he will be the shakespeare of my life, adorning my stale life with words that could paint a beautiful picture for me, a type of life that i dare not dream i could have. he will be perfect, beyond perfection. he will be my romeo in the modern day r&j. my prince charming in sleeping beauty and draw me up from this deep nightmare that i live in. and he will have a heart palpitating arrest over me. over and over again. till i find it even hard to catch my breath, for him alone.
okay, all a bit melodrama i know.
to put in simpler words, i am not entirely sure if i want to trade this new found independence i have with comfort and familiarity. i have come to find that i do like this joanne i know, than the joanne in relationships. the jo now is pretty happy, amidst certain times of weakness. but i find the jo in relationships a real pain in the ass. clingy and whiny like a twit. and i wished for me to be something else.
sigh.
i want a man who will share and celebrate the things life can bring. and not just the physical things of life like interests, but true feelings and emotions. i have come to agree with lenny that maybe being attached is just my way of avoiding loneliness, to have someone to be imitate with, to have someone to tell me im the most beautiful thing he has ever had his eyes on( i know, u can roll your eyes, im doing it now). because i think im pretty independent on my own, i have dreams, i have aspirations, and i know what i want out of life, rather than wasting it away. i have friends who love me and i love them all the same. so...my life is pretty much fulfilled. so what do i want? what.do.i.want?
emotional fuckwittage. damn you.
and all of this was because of one.
i gotta PEE.
check it out: we're on! http://bootyloot.livejournal.com :)
there's a man i thought about today, a man i dont even know exists, a man i wish to find one day, a man i wished was you or you..or perhaps you.
he will quote me love poems that will rapture my heart, but yet watch trashy shows with me (ie. punk'd or jackass) he will be the shakespeare of my life, adorning my stale life with words that could paint a beautiful picture for me, a type of life that i dare not dream i could have. he will be perfect, beyond perfection. he will be my romeo in the modern day r&j. my prince charming in sleeping beauty and draw me up from this deep nightmare that i live in. and he will have a heart palpitating arrest over me. over and over again. till i find it even hard to catch my breath, for him alone.
okay, all a bit melodrama i know.
to put in simpler words, i am not entirely sure if i want to trade this new found independence i have with comfort and familiarity. i have come to find that i do like this joanne i know, than the joanne in relationships. the jo now is pretty happy, amidst certain times of weakness. but i find the jo in relationships a real pain in the ass. clingy and whiny like a twit. and i wished for me to be something else.
sigh.
i want a man who will share and celebrate the things life can bring. and not just the physical things of life like interests, but true feelings and emotions. i have come to agree with lenny that maybe being attached is just my way of avoiding loneliness, to have someone to be imitate with, to have someone to tell me im the most beautiful thing he has ever had his eyes on( i know, u can roll your eyes, im doing it now). because i think im pretty independent on my own, i have dreams, i have aspirations, and i know what i want out of life, rather than wasting it away. i have friends who love me and i love them all the same. so...my life is pretty much fulfilled. so what do i want? what.do.i.want?
emotional fuckwittage. damn you.
and all of this was because of one.
i gotta PEE.
check it out: we're on! http://bootyloot.livejournal.com :)
posted by jo # 8:39 PM 