they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Friday, June 09, 2006
help. am utterly addicted to pandora.com and have no time to download all these good indie bands because ares is being a bitchface and right now i just re installed limewire, please do not die on me. DONT, doh!: (
i havent been productive at all, instead, i feel very drained and tired. i have work tonight (yes, for those who have been uninformed i have started work at barcelona wine bar, robertson quay, so DO drop by and make me happy:)) and i am working till 5am. please, is there a better way to shoot me and die?
this summer has been filled with lots of memorable things that i know i will miss once school starts. and honestly, i dont really want any of this to go away. is it odd that i don't like to stay home for long periods of time, because i fear the judging looks both em give? but like ive mentioned, it's times like these that i realise distance makes it easier for me to love them. and how sad that it has to all come to this stage of things.
i miss mary alot, and i really wished i had been able to see her this summer. but it seems that it isnt possible for me to go down to london, because there are no flights out.
my summer seems to be filled with loadsa laughter and mindless hanging out with new people i have met during this time, and i feel a part of me dying out. and i feel sad, i feel sad that i am no longer capable of deep feelings, of all that emo-ness i once had in me, because i chose to shut it all out and i fear turning into, cue: gasp, a BIMBO. not that i am entirely sure i can call myself that. although i do feel that sometimes shopping is better than sex. hahahahaha. (not that i know how sex feels like but nothing can gratify me more than a pair of new shoes, new bag or simply clothes, period.)
so on the deal of shopping, i am currently in love with supre.com and if anyone is willing to share the bitch of a shipping cost of 30 friggin aussie dollars with me, id be more than happy to do so. so now my pocket is whimpering in its most pathetic state possible but i cant seem to STOP. so somebody HELP ME.
sigh.
this summer is awesome fun, despite certain moments of depression- of feeling used and cheated, despite having no cash to spare but still having something to buy every single new waking moment, and despite missing out on my moments of pensiveness i used to be plagued by.
i cannot feel sad for you and i anymore. i couldnt even bring myself to. so i can say, i dont love you anymore. you left me, and it was your loss.
it's a clean slate i am beginning this journey again. and i feel like ive already stained the white sheets. i made mistakes, and i'm still making them with you. you're the addiction that can kill.
music: porcupine tree- collapse the light into the earth
i havent been productive at all, instead, i feel very drained and tired. i have work tonight (yes, for those who have been uninformed i have started work at barcelona wine bar, robertson quay, so DO drop by and make me happy:)) and i am working till 5am. please, is there a better way to shoot me and die?
this summer has been filled with lots of memorable things that i know i will miss once school starts. and honestly, i dont really want any of this to go away. is it odd that i don't like to stay home for long periods of time, because i fear the judging looks both em give? but like ive mentioned, it's times like these that i realise distance makes it easier for me to love them. and how sad that it has to all come to this stage of things.
i miss mary alot, and i really wished i had been able to see her this summer. but it seems that it isnt possible for me to go down to london, because there are no flights out.
my summer seems to be filled with loadsa laughter and mindless hanging out with new people i have met during this time, and i feel a part of me dying out. and i feel sad, i feel sad that i am no longer capable of deep feelings, of all that emo-ness i once had in me, because i chose to shut it all out and i fear turning into, cue: gasp, a BIMBO. not that i am entirely sure i can call myself that. although i do feel that sometimes shopping is better than sex. hahahahaha. (not that i know how sex feels like but nothing can gratify me more than a pair of new shoes, new bag or simply clothes, period.)
so on the deal of shopping, i am currently in love with supre.com and if anyone is willing to share the bitch of a shipping cost of 30 friggin aussie dollars with me, id be more than happy to do so. so now my pocket is whimpering in its most pathetic state possible but i cant seem to STOP. so somebody HELP ME.
sigh.
this summer is awesome fun, despite certain moments of depression- of feeling used and cheated, despite having no cash to spare but still having something to buy every single new waking moment, and despite missing out on my moments of pensiveness i used to be plagued by.
i cannot feel sad for you and i anymore. i couldnt even bring myself to. so i can say, i dont love you anymore. you left me, and it was your loss.
it's a clean slate i am beginning this journey again. and i feel like ive already stained the white sheets. i made mistakes, and i'm still making them with you. you're the addiction that can kill.
music: porcupine tree- collapse the light into the earth
posted by jo # 1:25 PM 