they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Monday, August 07, 2006
so the summer's ended and i start school tomorrow, which i am dreading with every ounce of dread i can conjure up in me. i will really miss the 4ams in town with jasmine, over fags and coffee, the partying and drinking, the kissing and laughing, the dancing and shopping, the phone calls and internet conversations. hell, i might even miss the stinky wireless connection i have at home. ill really miss it all. and i miss..you.
i really wanna say the things that i think about, the feelings i have in me right now, but im afraid i cant. cos i dont know how to put it in words, mebbe it's all too inadequate for me to put down at the same time. why do you do to me the things that you do, or dont do and keep pulling me back and forth, back and forth. (sidetrack: the phrase 'back and forth' reminds me alot about this show that i watched with jas on fri called 'me and you and everyone we know'. awesome funny touching movie, go watch!) dont do this, it's too hard and i hate getting emo on something that doesnt seem to mean much to you anyway. you've had me at hello. you had me at hello. you did it alright. well done.
for this whole summer, i seem to have lost touch with who i ought to be, and my morals i would say. but like flower says, you ought to be living and it's time to just fuck it. yeah, so i guess i could be alright living this way. cos it's so hard to care, so hard to bother when you're having so much fun. and i am having fun. maybe it's the wrong kinda fun, but it's still fun right? and i breathe easier these days, i get through each day easier and life seems to be finally, finally headed in the way it ought to be. so why do i feel that sometimes ppl can be so judgmental, then again i guess on some level, i am judging myself too. but a part of me is just telling the other half to chill out and just go with the flow. i think im made to be that way. u know, chill. haha.
okay, so bangkok was FUCKING amazing. 'nuff said.:)
and i love spontaneity. jas is probably the only person who can be that spontaneous with me. like yesterday, we decided to go to the night safari in a matter of 2 minutes. isnt it amazing? and i pierced my eyebrows and she pierced her belly button in a matter of half an hour. chop chop. SHIOK la! sigh. im going to miss this girl.
soooooooooooooooooo..after all said and done, i still miss you. FUCK.
i really wanna say the things that i think about, the feelings i have in me right now, but im afraid i cant. cos i dont know how to put it in words, mebbe it's all too inadequate for me to put down at the same time. why do you do to me the things that you do, or dont do and keep pulling me back and forth, back and forth. (sidetrack: the phrase 'back and forth' reminds me alot about this show that i watched with jas on fri called 'me and you and everyone we know'. awesome funny touching movie, go watch!) dont do this, it's too hard and i hate getting emo on something that doesnt seem to mean much to you anyway. you've had me at hello. you had me at hello. you did it alright. well done.
for this whole summer, i seem to have lost touch with who i ought to be, and my morals i would say. but like flower says, you ought to be living and it's time to just fuck it. yeah, so i guess i could be alright living this way. cos it's so hard to care, so hard to bother when you're having so much fun. and i am having fun. maybe it's the wrong kinda fun, but it's still fun right? and i breathe easier these days, i get through each day easier and life seems to be finally, finally headed in the way it ought to be. so why do i feel that sometimes ppl can be so judgmental, then again i guess on some level, i am judging myself too. but a part of me is just telling the other half to chill out and just go with the flow. i think im made to be that way. u know, chill. haha.
okay, so bangkok was FUCKING amazing. 'nuff said.:)
and i love spontaneity. jas is probably the only person who can be that spontaneous with me. like yesterday, we decided to go to the night safari in a matter of 2 minutes. isnt it amazing? and i pierced my eyebrows and she pierced her belly button in a matter of half an hour. chop chop. SHIOK la! sigh. im going to miss this girl.
soooooooooooooooooo..after all said and done, i still miss you. FUCK.
posted by jo # 8:48 PM 