they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Thursday, September 07, 2006
finally got round to ordering stuff from supre. so in 2 weeks ill have a new dress coming in! that's yay for me. im geting back into the swing of ordering stuff online because i hardly have the time to go out and shop, and besides im on the other side of the world, it's very hard to get to town without the temptation of holding my hand out and surrendering to the temptation of taking a cab. (i just realised i lost my black skirt! the one i wear to clubbing all the time, UGHHH, time to find new micro mini skirt but i loved that skirt, because it fit me perfectly due to my vertically challenged self!UGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH)
anyway, i think ive put on a bit weight. (sorry this is gonna become really superficial) or at least i think so..although my clothes still fit me the same, but i feel..fat. maybe because when im in dance im constantly surrounded by beautiful bodies, and by that i mean girls who are skinny to their bones. it's tragic really. sigh. never mind, i shall continue to gym and hopefully these blubbers will magically *poof*
moving on, ive been having dance almost daily. for papa, for mj and for myself. the bit for papa is shaping up, although very slowly. im no contemporary dancer, i dont know squat about ballet and it's not my thing at all, but the dancers are fun girls and dancing with them makes it all the more bearable. although, i must say it is very stressful to keep my lines straight, my posture upright and not break my squares (i know this sounds like gibberish but they really matter in contemporary dance! SO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?) and MJ is just awesome fun. i am getting a bit better in terms of grasping steps, just need to be sharper and put in more energy. but ive made new friends there and they're all so nice. they're coming to MOS with me tomorrow, so we can do all of our shit and dance like no one cares. : ) as for dance at jitterbugs, it's getting better, although advanced classes are harder these days, but i am gonna try. i think it's because i dont get enough sleep on mondays and tuesdays i have an entire day of lessons, it's hard to concentrate, but i shall not give up!
so that's that.
work is piling up, and im starting to feel bogged down by it. i want so much for it to end, but it's only just begun. i somehow feel like quitting school all of a sudden, because the pressure is too much to take. but i know i cant give up now that ive come this far. and with all of this work, i feel like i hardly have the time to think about things. yet at the same time, i feel like im becoming stupid by the minute, i dont know why. i havent had anything substantial to back me up, and i feel empty and hollow most of the time in school. it's really depressing somehow. like in 201, i am sleepy and zoning out most of the time. i hardly go for 226 lectures because i..have dance the night before and by the time im in lalaland, it's time to get up to go for classes. as for 203, no matter what i do, i dont seem to be good enough for her. 224 is a pain in the ass cos i absolutely hate my lecturer. 816 is a JOKE cos im already going to s/u the stupid module (that's how much i hate it, WHY on earth did they make it compulsory?!) and french is getting very very hard. most of the times im lost and pretty much relying on filza for answers. THIS HONESTLY SUCKS. everything sucks. school sucks. i hate school. it's seem to lost its once before oh-woah-this-course-is-so-cool thing for me. i am tired of the faces i see in school, tired of being alone, tired of pushing myself anymore. i just want to kick back and read books, critique films, drink coffee, laze around by the pool, discuss about literature, fashion, life and the works. and not give a shit about communication theories, how to find fucking information in the library, interpersonal communication. i do wanna learn how to write proper articles in 203, but my professor is a bitch from hell and is killing my interest completely. i feel like i cant even breathe in her classes.
that's rant for u.
what else.
oh jas is leaving in exactly 25 hours? about there. and ive already told her ill miss her but ill say it again here, I'LL MISS YOU!!! like really. no one to gossip with, no one to hang out wit till like 3 in the morning, no one to party with..sigh, depressing. but i hope i can see u during winter break? NEW YORK BABY!:)
so.....this is all i have to say for tonight, this morning, whatever.
my body clock is still screwed because i dont have much care to tune it back to the normal.
i still hate boys and i have no one to talk to. so..this entry is completely shallow and boring. not to mention useless and uncalled for. that is all. good night.
sleep.
love.
jo.
anyway, i think ive put on a bit weight. (sorry this is gonna become really superficial) or at least i think so..although my clothes still fit me the same, but i feel..fat. maybe because when im in dance im constantly surrounded by beautiful bodies, and by that i mean girls who are skinny to their bones. it's tragic really. sigh. never mind, i shall continue to gym and hopefully these blubbers will magically *poof*
moving on, ive been having dance almost daily. for papa, for mj and for myself. the bit for papa is shaping up, although very slowly. im no contemporary dancer, i dont know squat about ballet and it's not my thing at all, but the dancers are fun girls and dancing with them makes it all the more bearable. although, i must say it is very stressful to keep my lines straight, my posture upright and not break my squares (i know this sounds like gibberish but they really matter in contemporary dance! SO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?) and MJ is just awesome fun. i am getting a bit better in terms of grasping steps, just need to be sharper and put in more energy. but ive made new friends there and they're all so nice. they're coming to MOS with me tomorrow, so we can do all of our shit and dance like no one cares. : ) as for dance at jitterbugs, it's getting better, although advanced classes are harder these days, but i am gonna try. i think it's because i dont get enough sleep on mondays and tuesdays i have an entire day of lessons, it's hard to concentrate, but i shall not give up!
so that's that.
work is piling up, and im starting to feel bogged down by it. i want so much for it to end, but it's only just begun. i somehow feel like quitting school all of a sudden, because the pressure is too much to take. but i know i cant give up now that ive come this far. and with all of this work, i feel like i hardly have the time to think about things. yet at the same time, i feel like im becoming stupid by the minute, i dont know why. i havent had anything substantial to back me up, and i feel empty and hollow most of the time in school. it's really depressing somehow. like in 201, i am sleepy and zoning out most of the time. i hardly go for 226 lectures because i..have dance the night before and by the time im in lalaland, it's time to get up to go for classes. as for 203, no matter what i do, i dont seem to be good enough for her. 224 is a pain in the ass cos i absolutely hate my lecturer. 816 is a JOKE cos im already going to s/u the stupid module (that's how much i hate it, WHY on earth did they make it compulsory?!) and french is getting very very hard. most of the times im lost and pretty much relying on filza for answers. THIS HONESTLY SUCKS. everything sucks. school sucks. i hate school. it's seem to lost its once before oh-woah-this-course-is-so-cool thing for me. i am tired of the faces i see in school, tired of being alone, tired of pushing myself anymore. i just want to kick back and read books, critique films, drink coffee, laze around by the pool, discuss about literature, fashion, life and the works. and not give a shit about communication theories, how to find fucking information in the library, interpersonal communication. i do wanna learn how to write proper articles in 203, but my professor is a bitch from hell and is killing my interest completely. i feel like i cant even breathe in her classes.
that's rant for u.
what else.
oh jas is leaving in exactly 25 hours? about there. and ive already told her ill miss her but ill say it again here, I'LL MISS YOU!!! like really. no one to gossip with, no one to hang out wit till like 3 in the morning, no one to party with..sigh, depressing. but i hope i can see u during winter break? NEW YORK BABY!:)
so.....this is all i have to say for tonight, this morning, whatever.
my body clock is still screwed because i dont have much care to tune it back to the normal.
i still hate boys and i have no one to talk to. so..this entry is completely shallow and boring. not to mention useless and uncalled for. that is all. good night.
sleep.
love.
jo.
posted by jo # 2:21 AM 