they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

"Fix it. That's what I wished someone would do. Fix life, and I will live again."- Elizabeth Wurtzel, More Now Again

how those words ring true.

my laptop is fucked up. and now im using my brother's. it has an innate radar that says 'PISS JO OFF'. i hate it and i feel like smashing it to pieces.

pardon the anger. but i am pissed off with my grades. i studied like FUCK but i got totally shit grades. i cant believe i fucking got Cs. i never get Cs, even if it's a plus, and i mean NEVER. i mean jc doesnt count, because eventually i did okay. so, there goes my gpa. GREAT.

and worse still, i had someone come up to me and say this.: (upon seeing that i changed my nick to the above quote) "i give you screwdriver, you fix your life." you know what, fuck off.

now i just want to cry, scream and just wished i could talk to someone and just rant my fucking brains out. but well guess what, there's no one. not a single one.

was supposed to go party tonight, but surprises of all surprises, it didnt fall through. i mean seriously, what's the point about me living.

i have relied too much on SATC to take away my sorrows and turn it into laughter, and now i have watched all 12 episodes at least 5 times. i shall go buy the rest on amazon.com or something.

patrick kept scolding me today. 'why cant you remember your steps.' 'why didnt you do it properly.' 'you do so many times still cannot remember is it.' well, that's just fucking great isnt it.

apparently it's a good thing that he scolds you, it means he notices you. well, let's just hope so.

i need to dance, i need to cry, i need to scream, i need to run.

i feel so fucking alone.

but that's life right?

that's life.