they will see us waving from suchgreatheights
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
c"and really, i hate myself a little for saying this. but. it felt really sad not to have a man in my life who cares about me. no speacial guy to wish me happy birthday, no god damn soulmates. and i dont even know if i believe in soulmates."-- carrie bradshaw (sarah jessica parker, sex and the city season 4)
"because i am lonely, the loneliness is palpable."-- carrie bradshaw (sarah jessica parker, sex and the city season 5)
it seems like we'll always feel lonely.
friendships, it's a tricky thing. there are those that you care about, but they just dont give a fuck about you. there are those whom u feel u could be close to, but yet you dont know how to get closer. there are those whom u can see only once in a long time, and yet every time u see them, the distance doesnt matter at all. there are those that you hate(or so u think), but yet they still give a shit about u, more than those u wished would give a shit. there are those who care, really care, and ive only come to realise it, only sometimes a bit too late.
i dont want to miss out on these things anymore.
i want my friends back, life back. why, what happened between all of us. it's ironic we're only a few train stops away, but yet we can never find the time to talk, to catch up. i'm busy, you're busy, everyone's busy. but did we really try hard enough? did i try hard enough? i dont know. i do, i feel, sometimes. but all that effort goes to waste, and then i give up. had i not put up good enough a fight?
i loved my friends, those from vj, tk, my past. but why is it, all that love is nowhere to be found now. in me, i know i care. but i cant work up the energy anymore to ask people out. cos we all have our lives to lead, phases to move past, life to move on.
but i guess ill be fine. we're always lonely somehow.
i am learning to open up to new people in my life. mj-ians, maryann,eunice and all, but it'll take me some time, to learn how to trust others with my thoughts once again. so spare me, forgive me, for i am still learning. but at times, i wonder why bother, when mebbe all those times i tried would disappoint me again.
school's been trying these few days. everyone's breaking down, everything's falling apart. i just hope this time of difficulty would past and we would all be our happy selves again.
at least i have saturday to dance my heart out, and then maybe, just maybe, ill smile truly, in a very long while.
mulz: nope, they're not local dancers. yeya's this swedish/norwegian choreographer! :) and rino nakasone is gwen stefani's harajuku girls. but the videos are fucking amazing innit? hahaha.
maryann: YES I KNOW! i wanna dance like that too:( work hard babe, we'll get there.
elke: I MISS U LIKE FUCK LA. WHEN ARE WE GOING TO PARTY?!hahahhaha
"because i am lonely, the loneliness is palpable."-- carrie bradshaw (sarah jessica parker, sex and the city season 5)
it seems like we'll always feel lonely.
friendships, it's a tricky thing. there are those that you care about, but they just dont give a fuck about you. there are those whom u feel u could be close to, but yet you dont know how to get closer. there are those whom u can see only once in a long time, and yet every time u see them, the distance doesnt matter at all. there are those that you hate(or so u think), but yet they still give a shit about u, more than those u wished would give a shit. there are those who care, really care, and ive only come to realise it, only sometimes a bit too late.
i dont want to miss out on these things anymore.
i want my friends back, life back. why, what happened between all of us. it's ironic we're only a few train stops away, but yet we can never find the time to talk, to catch up. i'm busy, you're busy, everyone's busy. but did we really try hard enough? did i try hard enough? i dont know. i do, i feel, sometimes. but all that effort goes to waste, and then i give up. had i not put up good enough a fight?
i loved my friends, those from vj, tk, my past. but why is it, all that love is nowhere to be found now. in me, i know i care. but i cant work up the energy anymore to ask people out. cos we all have our lives to lead, phases to move past, life to move on.
but i guess ill be fine. we're always lonely somehow.
i am learning to open up to new people in my life. mj-ians, maryann,eunice and all, but it'll take me some time, to learn how to trust others with my thoughts once again. so spare me, forgive me, for i am still learning. but at times, i wonder why bother, when mebbe all those times i tried would disappoint me again.
school's been trying these few days. everyone's breaking down, everything's falling apart. i just hope this time of difficulty would past and we would all be our happy selves again.
at least i have saturday to dance my heart out, and then maybe, just maybe, ill smile truly, in a very long while.
mulz: nope, they're not local dancers. yeya's this swedish/norwegian choreographer! :) and rino nakasone is gwen stefani's harajuku girls. but the videos are fucking amazing innit? hahaha.
maryann: YES I KNOW! i wanna dance like that too:( work hard babe, we'll get there.
elke: I MISS U LIKE FUCK LA. WHEN ARE WE GOING TO PARTY?!hahahhaha
posted by jo # 12:17 AM 