they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

out of random boredom and the lack of concentration, i did a stupid colorgenics test:

You are striving for a life full of activity and experience and, perhaps even more, an environment where you would be able to forge a close bond with a person who can offer full emotional fulfilment.In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.
Compromise is the name of the game at this time and it is the only way you can avoid being deprived of the love and affection you so rightly deserve -so soften up a little, be flexible.For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish.

You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination.

You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.(read: this, my friends, is the reason why i CANNOT date a mat:), obviously.)

You really would like to be completely uninhibited - to let your hair down - but you are held back by your sense of logic and rationalilty, since you realise that by simple stupidity you could lose everything - whatever that may be.

funny how choosing a few coloured boxes can say so much about a person, and not forgetting the fact that it's actually quite accurate. interesting, very interesting.

i must have lost it somewhere along the way. i dont know what it was, or how it came about. perhaps it was the rain, the fact that i was studying literature, or that i had emo songs plugged into my ears, but i felt very sad today.

i was sad that i was sad, and that made me even sadder.

i feel ugly. and i am constantly plagued by these thoughts of inadequacy. i feel like i'm never good enough, not for anyone, but im never good enough for me. there's always a part of me that will never be able to let go of the fat ugly girl, im always berating myself for everything that goes wrong, for my stupidity, my ugliness, my lack of companionship. and it's stupid, much less tiring. but that's the story of my life. insecurity, fear and paranoia. every other passing day, is just another carousel ride with these thoughts that play up inside my head. and i can't tell anyone, there's no one to tell. i am ugly.and no amount of makeup and pretty clothes can ever mask my inferiority. that's why.that's why i am sad.

i want a holga camera, if anyone has not given me a birthday present and is feeling rich, can do so and make me a very happy girl.

placed some cool links at the side, shld check out MoMA and the lomography website.
beautiful, so beautiful.

hey anhua! did u know that the vj x-cty girls are champions again after 7 years? exciting isnt it?:) miss u love. shld catch up!

talking about catching up, guess who i just talked to on msn? michael lui, yeah like daphne's michael lui. but not anymore. he is a decent boy and funny in a strange way. but it's all cool! he's headed back to singapore in about a month. he says he wants to meet up, but really, some dates are said but u never make an effort to set a real one up. that's the futility of some relationships, it just never is what it seems.

forget it, i am going to sleep. i'm trying to play my mood up here, but it's not working. so, so long, and goodnight.

so long, and goodnight.