they will see us waving from suchgreatheights

why why did i have to go click on wetseal and tempt myself yet again?

fingers be damned!

met up with bryna today and she says ive become more subdued and mellowed. i guess so. there isnt anything to bring me down any longer, or maybe there's just too many things, that ive grown numb to it all. who knows, and who really cares. i dont, that's for sure.

i've been going through some crisis of sorts, ever since i got back from bangkok. i feel depressed more than ever, and i feel drained, tired and beaten up inside. it could be dance and how shitty it feels to be back in the row, fighting to be the best but ending up the worst, it could be the lack of companionship, of my lovely friends, or separated through distance, or plain laziness to meet and catch up, it could be the lack of anything to do around here except to bum around and fill my head with ugly thoughts. it could be anything, and it could be everything. i'm still wondering, what is. till then, i am sad jo. yet again.

i really wanna get outta here and find some place where the wind holds hope, not of despair, where i see new faces and promises of a new beginning, not of old to remind me of past mistakes and bad memories, where the places i walk, fields i lie in, are wide open spaces of good times, smiles and laughs, not of oppressiveness, tired soles, and worn out smiles.

so much's bringing me down, so where's the hurt that i should be wearing on like a patch?

i need love, true friends and passion. all of which isnt here right now.

21st birthday plans are up and coming:
1) bash at homeclub, theme should be pyjama party:) ppl in their underwear rocking it to indie music, now that's what i call a party
2) phuture/zouk? SO BORING
3) house party but where, dont know yet. theme should still be pyjama party. cant get over seeing ppl dressed in spongebob squarepants. hahaha

okay im sleepy, officially. so time for snooze.

music: ben harper- walk away
Oh, no
Here comes that sun again
That means another day
Without you, my friend

And it hurts me to look into the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more to have to be with somebody else

And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes, sometimes
You just have to walk away
Walk away

So many people to love in my life
Why do I worry about one?
But'a you put the happi- in my -ness
You put the good times into my fun

And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes, sometimes
You just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

We've tried the goodbyes
So many days
We walk in the same direction
So that we could never stray

They say if you love somebody
Then you have got to set them free
But I would rather be locked to you
Than live in this pain and misery

They say that time will make all this go away
But it's time that has taken my tomorrows
And turned them into yesterdays

And once again, that rising sun is a droppin' on down
And once again, you, my friend, are nowhere to be found

And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes, sometimes
You just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

You just walk away
Walk away
Walk away

Just walk on, walk on
Turn and head for the door
You just walk away